completely outspoken.

1.24.2012

there comes a time in your life

when you stop caring what everyone else thinks. when you finally grow up and realize you don't need everyone else to be happy. when you actually cherish the time you have with yourself. to be quite honest, i never thought i'd hit this phase; to me it was all about everyone's thought on how i looked and how smart i was. everyone made up my mind for me. lately i've learned you don't always need someone there for yourself. being independent is beautiful, so be it. everyone else doesn't matter in your life. don't be the typical girl who gossips about everyone. choose to be different. choose to stand out. choose the people who make you happy, choose the people who make you laugh and make you want to be a better person because i promise you, you won't get anywhere with people who are fake.

1.19.2012

the story.

so here it is. with all the moments that feel like could've been in a movie, and the times we've gotten hot chocolate (which you'll learn is almost daily)- here is my love story.

it doesn't start happily, actually. i never even knew who he was. he was dating one of my friends and i chose to stay away. the moment i saw him for the first time was in the pleasant grove lunch room. romantic i know. he was sitting in a chair and to be honest, i couldn't stop staring. he obviously noticed my wanting stare and marked me in his books as 'weird'.

fast forward to september 16th. the day before homecoming at the homecoming football game. i was in complete tunnel vision zone as i looked for my friends across the too crowded bleachers. then this kid came into focus. he was taller than everyone else. right when we made eye contact, he smiled at me. in complete awe i gave a half hearted smile back and hurried to turn around to break the awkward bonds. on the field later, i saw this mystery man talking to one of my friends. behind his back, i made the little motion to her to hook me up.. she took complete advantage of that.

I came home that night with a message on facebook from mr. tyler harmon. i was so excited and we texted that whole day. (keep in mind, 'text conversations' don't exactly hold my attention and after the third or fourth text i am 100% bored out of my mind. but yes, we did in fact TEXT all day. (he's special)) the stories he told me from his not so fairy tale life hit me deep, and my family soon became attached to him. at first i thought he was a creep. the way he opened my door everytime and asked me if i was doing okay. he wasn't the normal boy and the first week was rocky. i considered him just a friend until his ways completely won me over.

our first date was to lagoon where i fell in love so fast. our first kiss wasn't anywhere special and holding hands in public became a natural thing even though it used to be completely out of our comfort zones. he smiles whenever he sees me and surprises me with kit kats. i sometimes find notes on my car and messages on my facebook from him. picking me up and twirling me around only makes me the happiest girl. he is perfectly fine with my days in which i act like a completely fool, the days i decide to only wear sweats and no make up, and long talks with hot chocolate. he taught me how baseball was played and we have gone to a school dance. we are cheesy to each other, but who cares. we aren't perfect, even though sometimes we beg to differ. he is so charming and if you ever see him, say hi. i promise his smile back will brighten your day. we have mix ups and sometimes i get angry. but believe it or not, he is the boy everyone says to marry. so what if we are still in high school, we are in love.